After reading Stana's blog at Femulate, I figured I needed to create a blog recapping the past year in my transgendered life, since we are down to the last 4 days (counting today) of 2011. I decided to channel my inner film buff and separate the year into the good, the bad, and the ugly. As I believe in saving the best for last, I will cover these in reverse.
The Ugly: The hot Texas summer put the nix on any dressing for five months this year. Unfortunately I am a bit overweight so the heat causes me to sweat profusely. Even with waterproof makeup, I end up looking like Tammy Faye Baker after 15 minutes outside.
The Bad: When you read the next post, you will see that I have been out more this year (in the 7 months I could go out) than in any previous year. Unfortunately, more time out means more time read. Lowlights in reading were the Kroger in Allen after my trip to the casino when the older lady stared at me for an eternity, and my shopping trip when my voice wasn't working and I was read on two separate occasions-once by the teen in WalMart and once by the cashier at Goodwill (I think she read me--voice fail). Also, I have had terrible confidence issues this year. My "Just Do It" (thank you Nike) attitude was on several occasions "Are you really sure you want to do it?"
The Good: There have been tons of good things that have happened to me this year. As I mentioned above, I have been out as Janet more this year than any previous year. I had several firsts this year. Included in these are my first time going to a casino, first time going grocery shopping, and first time checking out at a store with a live cashier. Instead of quick trips inside of stores, I actually took my time and enjoyed myself. I changed my reasoning a bit and decided that I would only go to places if I had a reason to be there. That does not mean that window shopping is eliminated, because in my book window shopping is a reason. I did plenty of that this year. I also told a good, longtime friend about my dressing this year and she did not go off the deep end. She is actually coming out to my house this Saturday to celebrate New Years with me and my family. For the first time, I actually cared enough about my looks to go on a diet strictly for Janet. So far I have lost 13 pounds in 5 months, and I hope to lose 37 more as soon as I can. My goal is to fit in the size 16 dresses that I have at storage by next winter.
For my next blog (hopefully tomorrow!!), I will discuss my plans for 2012!
TTFN,
Janet
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