Hump Day!!

I am so glad it is Wednesday! Christmas is right around the corner! I have my Christmas music playing at my desk while I am working and I am really starting to get in the Christmas spirit.
I actually got to dress again yesterday. Unfortunately there is nothing really exciting to talk about with the dressing up, as it was a simple dress at storage, drive to a car wash a few miles from work, change into my drab clothes (while keeping the underdressed panties and pantyhose on), and go into work. You might ask why I bothered for an hour of dressing. The answer is easy--for practice. The more I wear complete outfits, the more I go out in full makeup and nails, the better I get at perfecting "my look" and the more comfortable I get at being Janet. By the time I get to Tulsa in 26 days, I will be so ready that it will be second nature for me.
I will be doing another all day affair real soon, and plan on using that time to take care of some Christmas shopping while en femme. At first I was thinking that I cannot do it in a dress and heels, but it will be a workday for most people and I will be out during the day, so I might end up in a nice dress or a skirt and blouse with 2 1/2 to 3 inch heels. I was thinking about a long sleeve blouse with an ankle length A line skirt and my black boots since the extended forecast shows that day with a high of mid 50's. That's just about right for a long skirt and long sleeves with boots. Depending on the wind I might have to wear slacks.We will see. There might be pictures ;-)

Transgendered in the news

This morning I was watching the news and a story came on about a couple from Dallas who are attempting to get a divorce. "So what?" you might ask. Couples get divorced all the time. The issue is that the male in the couple was once a female. After the reassignment surgery, his drivers license and birth certificate were changed to list him as male. Unfortunately, his wife decided that she does not want a divorce. Instead, she wants the marriage nullified because she now feels that the marriage was same sex (she knew before they were married that her SO was once a female) and same sex marriages are illegal in the state of Texas. The ironic thing is that if she would agree to a divorce, there would not be an issue since he is legally registered as male on all official documents including his birth certificate and the marriage license. Here is the link to the story. http://www.myfoxdfw.com/dpp/news/transgender-case-tests-marriage-laws-121211
Here is where this affects me. They had a short snippet of this story on the news last night. My wife was next to me when it came on. As soon as they mentioned transgendered and same sex marriage, she goes "Ewww" and turns her head away. Therein lies the reason why I have a "Don't ask, don't tell" relationship with her when it comes to my dressing. She would run away screaming flashing a crucifix in my face if I were to open up to her.

Monday Monday

Yes folks, it is THAT time of the week again--time for the Monday return to work. It is difficult to get in the swing of things on Monday morning, especially when you have such a hectic weekend.
We had two birthday parties on Saturday followed by a full day of Christmas cleaning and decorating Sunday. I absolutely love Christmas, although the days leading up to it can be rough. Especially hanging the lights on the house. One end of our house is higher off the ground than the other thanks to the shape of the land it is on, so the roof of the high end is 12 feet off the ground.
Now, I will readily admit that I am scared of heights, more so of being on ladders. Because of my short arms (5'4" tall = short arms), I could only hang 5 C9 lights before I had to scale down the ladder, move it over a few feet, climb up the ladder, and repeat the process. So I had to ignore my fear for a couple of hours while I tackled this project. I fininshed without falling off the ladder, and considered it a minor triumph. My legs sure were in pain after installing the lights!
That made me think about the fears that we go through on a daily basis as transgendered individuals. I know I go through tons of fear each time I go out in public en femme. The first fear is that someone I know will see me. This is my main fear and is the reason why I try to go places where I have less chance of being recognized. Then there are the fears that my car will break down, I will get humiliated or worse by a bigoted jerk in any of the places I go to, I will lock my keys in the car, I will run into a clueless cop that does not understand that dressing as a woman is not illegal, etc...
You may ask how I get rid of the fear. The answer? I don't. To explain, I do not get rid of the fear, but I do not let it control me either. If any of those things happen, I will just get up off the ground, dust myself off, and keep on plugging away. The ironic thing is, none of those things have happened so far.
The bad thing about the ladder incident is that my legs were too sore for me to wear heels this morning, plus I was running super late, so I could not dress. at all. I have an outfit in the car that I can change into on the way in to work tomorrow, so I just need to get out of the house earlier.

A special thanks to Meg @ Call Me Meg for the shout out on her Sunday post! I hope that Meg's suggestion will help bring more followers to my blog.