Monday Monday

Yes folks, it is THAT time of the week again--time for the Monday return to work. It is difficult to get in the swing of things on Monday morning, especially when you have such a hectic weekend.
We had two birthday parties on Saturday followed by a full day of Christmas cleaning and decorating Sunday. I absolutely love Christmas, although the days leading up to it can be rough. Especially hanging the lights on the house. One end of our house is higher off the ground than the other thanks to the shape of the land it is on, so the roof of the high end is 12 feet off the ground.
Now, I will readily admit that I am scared of heights, more so of being on ladders. Because of my short arms (5'4" tall = short arms), I could only hang 5 C9 lights before I had to scale down the ladder, move it over a few feet, climb up the ladder, and repeat the process. So I had to ignore my fear for a couple of hours while I tackled this project. I fininshed without falling off the ladder, and considered it a minor triumph. My legs sure were in pain after installing the lights!
That made me think about the fears that we go through on a daily basis as transgendered individuals. I know I go through tons of fear each time I go out in public en femme. The first fear is that someone I know will see me. This is my main fear and is the reason why I try to go places where I have less chance of being recognized. Then there are the fears that my car will break down, I will get humiliated or worse by a bigoted jerk in any of the places I go to, I will lock my keys in the car, I will run into a clueless cop that does not understand that dressing as a woman is not illegal, etc...
You may ask how I get rid of the fear. The answer? I don't. To explain, I do not get rid of the fear, but I do not let it control me either. If any of those things happen, I will just get up off the ground, dust myself off, and keep on plugging away. The ironic thing is, none of those things have happened so far.
The bad thing about the ladder incident is that my legs were too sore for me to wear heels this morning, plus I was running super late, so I could not dress. at all. I have an outfit in the car that I can change into on the way in to work tomorrow, so I just need to get out of the house earlier.

A special thanks to Meg @ Call Me Meg for the shout out on her Sunday post! I hope that Meg's suggestion will help bring more followers to my blog.