I have read several posts on other LGBT blogs that discuss the differences between transgendered people and crossdressers, and truthfully, I don't fit completely into either. I am a man that dresses in womens clothing when I have the chance and 90% of the time am underdressed. That would make me a crossdresser.
But stop the presses. I also have the emotions and feelings typically attributed to the female gender, and feel that I am a woman stuck in a man's body. Nothing makes me feel more like myself than spending all day in panties, pantyhose, a bra, a nice woman's outfit, heels, and makeup and wig, partaking the day as a woman. That would make me a transgendered person. Current circumstances have dictated that I cannot present full-time as a woman, but if I could, I would. There is just too much at stake.
So where does that leave me? Because I feel that my physical makeup is not what it should be, I am transgendered. Yes, I do present as a man when the need arises. I work on cars, I fix the house, I mow the lawns, etc.., but the whole time I wish I was doing it while presenting myself as Janet. I wish I was doing those things with my wig in a ponytail, wearing capris, a knit t-shirt, and canvas shoes or ballet flats, worrying about breaking one of my french manicured nails.
To ask the question again: Where does that leave me? The answer is in a constant state of turmoil.
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