Personal Realizations

As my first official blog (the one from earlier is basically an introduction), I wanted to discuss some personal realizations I have discovered during my years as a transgendered person.
I have been dressing as Janet since I was 6 years old. It began with my Mom's heels at 6.
Realizations at 6
1. Mom's heels are comfy

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2. Heels make a neat sound when you walk on a tile floor

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Next it was her pantyhose and heels at around 8
Realizations at 8
3. Pantyhose feel so smooth and luxurious when I wear them.

4. Mom sure does dress nice.

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Then it was her underwear, pantyhose, clothes, and heels at around 13.
Realizations at 13
5. I would rather dress as a woman than a man.
6. Secretaries wear very nice, comfortable dresses (Mom was a secretary).

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7. Shoes feel so much better with pantyhose on your feet (tried with and without-like with better).

8. Black goes with anything.

Unfortunately, it was also at this time that I started to outgrow Mom's clothes and shoes. Over the next few years, I had to resort to finding other women I encountered that were larger than my Mom and "borrow" their clothes. Luckily, the neighbor's daughter (who was 10 years older than me) and a couple of our neighbors fit the bill.
Realizations at 15
9. Female flight attendants wear the prettiest navy outfits and heels.

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10. Black patent is sexy and is my main turn-on (so starts the trend that continues today-60% of my shoes are BP).

11. Accessorizing with belts and jewelry completes the outfit.

12. High heels aren't THAT hard to walk in.

This continued until I started driving and working at 17 and could afford to go to the store and purchase my own items. Unfortunately I came to a couple realizations at that point that actually hurt me for a few years.
Realizations at 17
13. Mom was very nosy and loved to search my room, my car, and every other location she could think of to find my stash and get rid of it.
14. Telling the sales associates that the items I was buying were for my mom or girlfriend kept my secret safe.

This continued until I turned 21 and moved into my apartment. My roommate was a beautiful woman that is the same age as me and was my exact same size. I was also spending more time driving around dressed, and started wearing a wig.
Realizations at 21
15. Sleeping in womens underwear is a liberating experience.
16. Having your own room in your own apartment lends itself to massive freedom to dress and experiment in seclusion.
17. Goodwill is a great place to pick up nice gently used clothing at a very reasonable price.

Fast forward to 26. It was then that I decided the time was right to go all the way with my dressing. I started wearing breast forms (cheap ones made of knee highs and birdseed) and makeup. I started paying attention to how I looked in an attempt to pass as Janet.
Realizations at 26
18. Makeup is not that hard to apply.
19. Storage buildings are excellent places to keep your clothes so nosy family members, roommates, girlfriends, and eventually wives do not find them.
20. The storage buildings are also great places to get dressed and undressed.
21. When driving, very few people pay attention to who is driving next to them.

Unfortunately, I spent the next 8 years driving around at night, never getting out of my car, and hiding from the rest of the world. Then the unthinkable happened. I got brave. I decided to step out and walk around the mall. At 34 I came to the realizations that have probably made the most impact on me.
Realizations at 34
22. You will not get arrested for walking around the mall in womens clothing.
23. Going out in public as Janet is an exhilarating experience and beats the hell out of my male persona.
24. Coin operated car washes and park bathrooms make great places to get changed into and out of clothes.
25. Most cashiers don't care who you are buying the clothes for.

That brings us to this past year.
Realizations at 39/40
26. The expensive shoes are expensive for a reason and it is more than because of the name.

27. The majority of people you see in public that you don't know don't care if you dress as a man, woman, dog, or the Easter Bunny. They are so caught up in their own lives that they do not care about yours.
28. Most cashiers and sales associates want your business and will not do anything to drive you away.
29. If you let your feminine instincts take over and stop thinking about walking, you walk more fluidly and your feet don't hurt as much.
30. Being called "Ma'am" is the ultimate vindication.